Hey everyone!
Today has definitely been a day of days, let me tell ya. As most of you know, ever since my junior year of high school, Wednesdays have been commemorated as Wonderfully Wacky Wednesdays, but today simply appears to be just whacked. First of all at 9AM this morning I had my hand controls driving lesson. Over the past couple weeks I've vented through my facebook status how the instructor is just not a good fit for me, and today it was continually confirmed. I just don't really handle the "let's be patronizing toward disabled people" attitude very well. I don't stand for that BS. As one of my previous statuses said, "I think it's so sickening when abled people so obviously use fake compassion in trying to pretend like they know what it's like to be disabled, just for their own personal brownie-point benefit, when really they should just turn around before I puke all over 'em! No joke! lol." That statement is still so very true today, as it was the day I wrote it, and will be true everyday after this. Nobody can ever know what's it's like to be disabled until it happens for them, and even then, each case is entirely different from another so amongst us there are only general similarities we can all relate to. If there was one good thing my parents taught me, it's to fight to the death for what you believe in. I fought my way into this world, and I will continue to fight my way through til the day I die, because only then will the answer be no. If my family always just took the first thing and or diagnosis that was ever just said about me, then there would be no way I would be the person I am, or gotten to where I am today. Long story short, the only two people who truly call the shots for me in my life are myself and God. So for future reference, to this specific person, and anybody else, I am not stupid, dumb or slow, and I can hear... So please, no longer speak as if I am either of those things, or hard of hearing, because in the end, the only person that appears that way is you, and that you like to hear yourself speak... Sorry to burst your bubble.
Later this afternoon, I heard news that things just got worse, my aunt's dog died. Zee was a great dog, and was part of lives during our childhood. She was 14 years old, and went in her sleep last night. Zee and my aunt Gladys had been through a lot together, due to circumstances that changed all of our lives forever years ago, she could've died back then, but she held on because she loved Gladys. :) One of my favorite memories with Zee was when Gladys lived near us, and we had a snow day once when Gladys brought her over. We took Zee outside to play with us, and made snowballs to play fetch with, and she would eat them midair. :) We all thought it was really funny. :) In fact, nowadays whenever it snows close enough to a snow day, that is one of the three memories we all have about them. :) Gladys also used to let us tag along to the LaundroMutt to watch her get a bath, but she was always terrified of it, only to go for a swim in the lake once they got home anyways. lol. :) She was truly precious, RIP Zee, We loved you very much. ♥
So today was just a bit too much of an overload for me with off-ness, I really hope things get actually better soon, because I'm not sure how many more days coincidentally I can take, that just continue in an off pattern, it really is not fun!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Saturday, April 10, 2010
To Dr. Sobel with LOVE!!! :)
Earlier tonight I was watching Mr Holland's Opus, and I must have needed a good happy cry, because I bawled my eyes out. It wasn't until the very end scene that I registered the similarities between Mr. Holland and someone very important in my life. That person is Dr. Roger Sobel. Dr. Sobel has been in my life since I've existed, or so I choose to believe, since he has been there as far back as I can remember. My first remembered memories were of when I was a year and a half old. Dr. Sobel is the orthopedic doctor who performed all my surgeries, which have been many, between that of 10-12 somewhere. I could never imagine my life without him having been in it, I still can't, and that's where I tend to tear up a lot lately, almost everyday, because he just like Mr Holland is retiring at the end of this month. :( :( :( :( :(!!!!
Just the same as the last scene in the movie said, Dr. Sobel's life was never misspent. He is not rich or famous, except to those whose life he has been a part of. He is one of my greatest heroes to whom I always will hold very close in my heart. No amount of words, for the rest of my life, can truly explain just how very thankful and blessed I am to have known him, and to have him play an extremely intricate role in my life. :) From the very depths and every inch of my soul, it has been an honor. :) By him just simply stepping into my life all those years ago, he profoundly changed, and in the long run, SAVED my life by truly giving me the gift of life. He will be deeply missed, but never forgotten. ♥ WITH LOVE, ALWAYS!!..Here's to you, Dr. Sobel, CHEERS!!... ♥
Just the same as the last scene in the movie said, Dr. Sobel's life was never misspent. He is not rich or famous, except to those whose life he has been a part of. He is one of my greatest heroes to whom I always will hold very close in my heart. No amount of words, for the rest of my life, can truly explain just how very thankful and blessed I am to have known him, and to have him play an extremely intricate role in my life. :) From the very depths and every inch of my soul, it has been an honor. :) By him just simply stepping into my life all those years ago, he profoundly changed, and in the long run, SAVED my life by truly giving me the gift of life. He will be deeply missed, but never forgotten. ♥ WITH LOVE, ALWAYS!!..Here's to you, Dr. Sobel, CHEERS!!... ♥
Hello Out There!... What It Means to Believe...
Hi Everyone!
I am new to this whole blogging thing on Facebook, but I hope to really get into it just as much as I have with my MySpace one in the past. So please bare with me as I'm getting the hang of things one step as I go along. :) I figured having this blog would be an easier way for my friends, family and fans to have insight into my daily life, or as often as possible that I post stuff, instead of posting every occurrence or feeling as my FB status. So here goes nothing...lol... :)
Not a lot has really been going on in my life lately that is entirely too new, but I guess that's OK. I am now in my last month of physical therapy for this year that has been going on since August. I have really enjoyed and appreciated getting back into it after like a 15+ year or so absence. My insurance only pays for it in 6 months-year increments, so when May gets here I will be having to take a break until it can be renewed, which will on one end be nice, but I hope to be able to keep up and or hold the progress I've achieved thus far. I can bend again!! Lol. :) Therapy happens for me twice a week on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so at this point, that makes Thursdays the busiest day of the week for me because I go to Nine70 at Timberline Church here in town on Thursday evenings. Nine70 is a church ministry of young adults 18-35 years old. It consists of college students, young professionals, and young engaged/married couples. I have been going there for three years this October. It has really changed my life entirely, and has helped me to have a relationship with, and come to really know God. :)
I was never raised in church, so that was a BIG step for me to really allow my heart's guard down. Even since I was younger though, I always felt as if there had to be some sort of higher power out there, to choose me to be the way I am. :) Let me tell ya, miracles do and can happen. As most of you know my dad had gastric bypass surgery last summer, and long story short, there was a freak accident due to a reaction of his post-op medication, his heart stopped, his kidneys failed, and we almost lost him. :( He was on life support in ICU for a day, hospitalized for a week, and on dialysis for 4 months. Through walking every inch of the hospital, when I couldn't stand to see my family in so much pain and worry, and through prayer every day, all day, he eventually after those 4 months of dialysis, was given a clean bill of health since his kidney function had doubled, and he was able to return to life. :) Now if something like that didn't confirm my belief, I can't tell you what would! :)
On other good news updates and prayer, my mom was finally able to find a job after two years of being unemployed, and I couldn't be more excited and happy for her! :) YAY MAMA!!! :) We love ya! She'll now have something to cheer her up and look forward to doing everyday again. :) On a more personal note, my life has truly been blessed with the most greatest and exciting life- changing gift possible at this point in time, that some never thought I would ever be able to achieve, as many of you know, and that is.... DRIVING!!!! WOO-HOO!!! :) It is totally awesome! Being on the road is so freeing, and is the one place where I'm just as equal as anybody else, socially speaking. For once I'm not known as being the "disabled girl", no I'm as George Carlin once said, "handicapable!!" Or in my case, I guess that would be "MandyCapable!" Lol. :) I will be keeping you all updated on my adventures of the road as they happen, including but not limited to my car that has been dubbed Zues, and my interactions with crazy people who discriminate against the idea of my driving, which I look forward to, so I can prove them all wrong! Lol. :) As for now though, I'm going to say goodnight since it's after 2AM, and I never expected to type this long. :) Good night everybody, God bless! :)
I am new to this whole blogging thing on Facebook, but I hope to really get into it just as much as I have with my MySpace one in the past. So please bare with me as I'm getting the hang of things one step as I go along. :) I figured having this blog would be an easier way for my friends, family and fans to have insight into my daily life, or as often as possible that I post stuff, instead of posting every occurrence or feeling as my FB status. So here goes nothing...lol... :)
Not a lot has really been going on in my life lately that is entirely too new, but I guess that's OK. I am now in my last month of physical therapy for this year that has been going on since August. I have really enjoyed and appreciated getting back into it after like a 15+ year or so absence. My insurance only pays for it in 6 months-year increments, so when May gets here I will be having to take a break until it can be renewed, which will on one end be nice, but I hope to be able to keep up and or hold the progress I've achieved thus far. I can bend again!! Lol. :) Therapy happens for me twice a week on Tuesdays and Thursdays, so at this point, that makes Thursdays the busiest day of the week for me because I go to Nine70 at Timberline Church here in town on Thursday evenings. Nine70 is a church ministry of young adults 18-35 years old. It consists of college students, young professionals, and young engaged/married couples. I have been going there for three years this October. It has really changed my life entirely, and has helped me to have a relationship with, and come to really know God. :)
I was never raised in church, so that was a BIG step for me to really allow my heart's guard down. Even since I was younger though, I always felt as if there had to be some sort of higher power out there, to choose me to be the way I am. :) Let me tell ya, miracles do and can happen. As most of you know my dad had gastric bypass surgery last summer, and long story short, there was a freak accident due to a reaction of his post-op medication, his heart stopped, his kidneys failed, and we almost lost him. :( He was on life support in ICU for a day, hospitalized for a week, and on dialysis for 4 months. Through walking every inch of the hospital, when I couldn't stand to see my family in so much pain and worry, and through prayer every day, all day, he eventually after those 4 months of dialysis, was given a clean bill of health since his kidney function had doubled, and he was able to return to life. :) Now if something like that didn't confirm my belief, I can't tell you what would! :)
On other good news updates and prayer, my mom was finally able to find a job after two years of being unemployed, and I couldn't be more excited and happy for her! :) YAY MAMA!!! :) We love ya! She'll now have something to cheer her up and look forward to doing everyday again. :) On a more personal note, my life has truly been blessed with the most greatest and exciting life- changing gift possible at this point in time, that some never thought I would ever be able to achieve, as many of you know, and that is.... DRIVING!!!! WOO-HOO!!! :) It is totally awesome! Being on the road is so freeing, and is the one place where I'm just as equal as anybody else, socially speaking. For once I'm not known as being the "disabled girl", no I'm as George Carlin once said, "handicapable!!" Or in my case, I guess that would be "MandyCapable!" Lol. :) I will be keeping you all updated on my adventures of the road as they happen, including but not limited to my car that has been dubbed Zues, and my interactions with crazy people who discriminate against the idea of my driving, which I look forward to, so I can prove them all wrong! Lol. :) As for now though, I'm going to say goodnight since it's after 2AM, and I never expected to type this long. :) Good night everybody, God bless! :)
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