Hey everyone! I told you I would be back as soon as I had a chance to sit down and process my thoughts after my vacation, so, here I am! :) As you all know I went on vacation almost a month ago now (WOW) to Kentucky to see my one of my bestest friends Melissa and her boys Tristen and Kayleb, who are my adopted nephews. :) I really can't even believe that much time has passed already, it's crazy, and feels literally like yesterday that I just got there. I miss it terribly so much already that it's not even funny. I even missed it before I left their airport to come home. It truly changed my life. I had been needing a vacation for such a long time that it was the perfect fit. :) I needed a break to relax and refresh, and it was just that. :) I was able to leave there with the clear head and renewed heart that I had been striving to find again for such a long time. I finally had a sense of belonging which I truly had not felt for a very long time either, and if anything even ever came close to that feeling, it's sadly very short lived. In my previous blog entry, I talked about the few things that had marked my summer months, and the reasons those moments in particular stuck out/mattered so much to me, was because those were each the last times (to that date) that I felt any sense of belonging, until my trip. :) I had the chance to spend time with, and meet great people who I have always considered family, it was so neat. I don't think there was a time where a smile left my face (and if it did, it was most likely due to laughing) and it immediately came right back. :)
In short, My trip was also spent by experiencing fine "Kentucky original" dining, many fun days poolside, a very special birthday luau for Kayleb, and of course... The Joan Jett concert! :) I'll get to that in a minute, but first I have to say something. Melissa, Tristen and Kayleb warmed my heart SO much while I was there, that I often cried from happiness tears every night before going to sleep. Kayleb even told me that I was the best and his favorite birthday present that he could have gotten this year. When really, it has been a truly greater honor to be a part of those boys' lives. ♥ :) I love the fact that they see as normal, and always have, for that is one of the greatest gifts I could be given. :) They are the best nephews anyone could ask for. ♥ I admire Melissa very much for the person that she is, people always tell me how I inspire them, but she truly inspires me. She is one of the most strong and kind hearted women I know. I hope to be like her as a woman and a mother, (when and if I get the chance to be), because she has shown me that happiness and strength can be found anywhere, and when life throws you for a loop, or knocks you down, you can and will pick yourself up again... (and not just in the physical sense that I almost face-literally everyday.) lol. :) Laughter is and was an everyday gift with her. ♥
Joan Jett night was one of the best nights EVER, and I'm glad I got to spend it with her.♥ Not many people know this, (well they do now, after all my frantic postings, and videos,) but Joan Jett has truly been one of my biggest idols for literally half my life. It was so awesome to finally get to see her perform live! :) To me, it's women like her and her old friend Cherie Currie (from her Runaways days) that make us know we are all rock stars as women, from the first time I heard her (when I was like 12-13ish or something), I knew that I too wanted to have that same attitude about myself, and toward anyone who was rude about my disability! "F@$k 'em!" lol. :) I knew that I too deserved to hold myself to the highest regard, never lower my standards, and to stand strong for my beliefs no matter what anyone else says, (even if I have to sing or scream them at my loudest to get anyone's attention), OR even if I'm standing alone. The greatest thing about that night with Joan though, was that she proved (after getting hurt, and like me) that you don't always have to be able to stand up to be able to rock it out, like the truest of rock stars that her and I are. :) I will truly hold that experience in a VERY special part of my heart always! Thank you so much to Melissa and Marsha! We definitely "got it at Joan Jett" didn't we? lol. :) ♥
To all my newly found Louisville family, I WILL be BACK! (Sinister laughter)..lol! :) Thank you to Pat "Pops" for being the very BEST second dad any girl could ask for. It was an honor to meet you and to be a part of your life for a week or so. ♥ And to my most lovely ladies, Marsha and Ann, I love you guys to death so much, and I'm so thankful to have gotten the chance to meet you as well, and can't wait to make more memories the minute I get back. :) Thank you for being a part of Melissa's life, and for filling in when I'm not able to. I love you all! :)
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